Life Lost

I have been experiencing the worst pain of my life. I never thought anything could hurt more than losing loved ones to death, but selfish as it may be for me to think so, this is worse. I gave up everything I knew to move across the country and build my life around the woman I loved at her request but after a year, she decided that everything I am and everything I had done to be with her wasn’t enough. She wanted someone else. Everything had been set. My future was with her. My home was with her. She was all I wanted. Now, I’m nothing. I don’t have a job. I’m living with my sister and her family who generously offered to put me up because I had no place to go.

And I’m old.

And I’m tired.

It took so much energy for me to start a new life with her and now I have to find a way to start all over again. I had never really been happy before I took that huge leap of faith and I don’t see how I’ll ever be happy again. Honestly, I don’t know how I’ll survive.